antara surirumah dan ibu bekerjaya?

esok, pada 8 pagi, saya akan menempuhi satu sesi temubual or senang cite, interview session which can change my life after this forever~ dari suri rumah sepenuh masa kepada mama yang bekerjaya.. sob sob..

doakan yang terbaik ya.

saya pun tak berapa bersedia ni actually. dengan faheem demam, dan diri sendiri yang turut terasa macam nak demam sekali. sob sob.

nervous tak lagi, tapi for sure bila detik 8 pagi tu dah semakin dekat, for sure nervous dan sakit perut akan menjelma.

semoga mulut dan akal tak kaku la dalam berfikir esok. udah ler dah lama tidak attend any interview.

ya Allah, permudahkan la urusan ku esok. ameen.

doakan saya ya~~~ n please doakan moga faheem cepat sembuh seperti sediakala. ameen..

berbuka puasa di dungun

kring kring (okay tipu sungguh ni bunyi ringtone hp saya :P)

"hello~"

"hello. ha. apa program hari ni?" abg D, sepupu ku sebelah ayah yang tinggal di dungun bertanya.

"ha abg D, xdok wat gapo-gapo. duk ghumoh je kot" tetiba slang kelate ku keluar.

"ha. maghi la buko ghumoh. kalau xdok gapo-gapo maghi lah. kak la masok banyok sket kalau buleh g" ajak abg D.

ha. peluang keemasan jangan dilepaskan.tak gitu kawan-kawan. ngeh-ngeh.

"okay~"

so, tepat 530 petang (well, takde la tepat sangat actually) bertolaklah saya dan ain ke dungun. singgah sebentar di bazar ramadan paka untuk membeli sedikit buah tangan. saya beli 3 bungkus soya cincau dan ain beli sekotak kurma. and zoom kami ke dungun pula.

otw to dungun, sempat lagi bercerita kisah hantu. especially kisah cik pon di tempat yang famous di kerteh. hehe. ada port cik pon rupanya di kerteh ni. ni kak marina yang bercerita masa otw balik dari berbuka puasa di sekolah padang kubu. nak tahu katne? pm me for more info. :D

sampai-sampai je rumah abg D, anak-anak dia yang aktif tu dah sedia menunggu di luar rumah. well, bukan tunggu kami pun actually, diorang memang duk bermain-main kat luar masa tu. haha

best bukak puasa dengan abg D sekeluarga. meriah dengan karenah dan perangai anak-anak yang pelbagai. masing-masing becok bercakap dan mahukan perhatian. penat jugak la. tapi seronot. hehe. buatkan diri ini makin tak sabar nak ada famili sendiri. erk :P -berangan kejap-

yang kelakar. ain suh budak-budak ni panggil dia auntie. tapi saya taknak. apa kes auntie-auntie. haha. panggil kakak sudah. habis nya, kena pandang sleck dengan diorang sume. haha. bak kata shahrin, my rakan sekerja di PP*. ada aku kesah~ :P

penat makan, penat melayan budak-budak tu melukis, penat mengangkat budak-budak ala piggy back, and menjulang tinggi baby irsyad ke langit (okay, bukan langit, siling je hehe), penat melayan rajuk bila tak dapat apa yang dia nak. dan macam-macam lagi. rasa macam famous plak bila empat-empat anak-anak sepupuku ini mengerumi "kakak" dia ni at one time. tapi i dont mind. seronot sangat`~

ye la. kalau kebiasaan. saya buka puasa sorang-sorang je tau dalam bilik berteman kan juadah berbuka puasa seperti di bawah... dan kipas dan laptop..

biasa lah. orang bujang kan? till then, happy ramadan semua.

when i started working..

i have been working for about 8 months now..

and as time goes by, there is one thing that i realized..

it is actually not easy to be a good "ketua"..

from my own observation and experience..

in order to be a good "ketua"..

apart from getting sure the work is done..greatly and on time of course..

you too have to know how to inspire and motivate your subordinates..

and i have to agree..

not everyone can do that..

u may be a good "instructor".. but i guess in long term it will affect you badly..

other than that, it is not easy too to be a good "kuli"..

especially when you are having a bad time communicating with your "ketua".. and when you are doing something that is not your interest or something that you don't like..

i guess that's working life..

you have to expect the unexpected.. you have to be extra strong and tough.. especially when you are working for other people..

don't let them make u feel down.. if ya pun, make it in -short term- period. hehe

so, chaiyo`!!

life must get going..

insyaAllah, there will be a rainbow at the end of the tunnel..

ngee.

p/s: cant wait to go back home. Rumahku syurga ku~~ and of course. post ini hanyalah cetusan hati. takde kena mengena dengan specific person. anggap saje ini adalah general view of mine. :)

kalau lah..

kalau lah anda mengeluarkan pendapat atau soalan.

dan orang itu akan memandang anda dengan penuh sinis dan pelik.

apa yang anda akan rasa?

kalau lah anda mengeluarkan soalan yang terbuku di hati mengenai sesuatu topik itu.

orang itu akan bertanya kembali kepada anda. dan sekaligus membuat anda rasa bodoh. dan terdetik dalam hati "kalau aku tahu, aku tak tanya lah~!"

kalau dan kalau.

sigh.

how can u still be motivated when there is people like this around u?

and how can u still be positive?

well syaima', please stop blaming people.

maybe its u yang problematic. hehe.

so be strong. n keep on improving.

maybe this is a way that Allah s.w.t want to show or shape u to be a better and stronger person.

n maybe now, u are suffering. who knows later u'll be happy. kan?

chaiyo`~

-diri sendiri bagi dorongan. ngeh2-

setelah sekian lama..

i know, its been too long since the last time i wrote in here... sori en blog. for neglecting u for quite some time..

since i've started working... 24 jam itu.. sudah menjadi amat2 sekejap.. terasa sangat lah tidak mencukupi..

penat itu pasti.

rutin hari-hari sama je.

6-7am: bangun, mandi n solat

8-830am: tiba di office

830-1pm: WORK

1-2pm: makan

2-6 or more: WORK

8-10: Dinner

10pm: tido~

internet sekarang hanya di gunakan utk check email di GMAIL n facebook ing`~

utk menulis di blog? sangat xde mood. huhu. ye la. penat seharian di ofis kan.

okay lah. enuf of bebel~ its time for story telling...

so far, life in kerteh has been great.

people here are so nice. happy dapat kenal ramai lagi manusia baru dalam hidup. ye lah. almost everyone orang baru. since im the only one from batch JAN O5 dr UTP yang ada kat kerteh ni apart from ain, anuchit n iffat. mcm2 karenah n perangai. but yeah, dats what make it more interesting. kesimpulannya; kat kerteh ni mmg susah nk cr org yang sombong lg kerek. most of them sgt mesra alam. ehe. lucky me aite?

the food? hm. if x masin, sure terlampau manis. senang cite, i can say that they still cannot beat the food in Tronoh n UTP. hehe. especially the legendary sambal belacan sabila. ngu. rindu nya. n i was shocked at first, because i thought food in here would be deliciously same as in Kelantan, my kampung. rupa2nya tidak okay kawan-kawan.

work has been ok [la kot. :P]. i still need to do a lot of improvement. biasa lah kan. still baru. pengalaman pun kurang. hope i can be better n better as the time goes by. smpi bos pun sayang. [hak hak. u hope my dear. u hope]

n to be frank, i actually love all of the non work related task. especially the part being the emcee. bila dah kerja kat PP* ni, tetiba je dapat tahu, yang diri ni ada bakat terpendam dalam bidang pengacaraan kemajlisian rupanya. ahaha. so far, its already 3 events that i've been the emcee. [okay. pasneh tamo dah. sure org da bosan] each event brings different experience but yet still wonderful. antara comment orang yg paling i takleh terima is. "u ni emcee yang manja~" i was like.. haha. ok. i take that as a compliment lah. [positif2]

YEC NITE OUT 2010 baru2 ni jg memberi satu lg memori indah dlam hidup. dapat award best dress beb. ahaha. x pernah2 dpat sebelum ni. plus, our big man [guess who?] in PP* jemput i teman dia menyanyi. wo. segan. tp still best. kelakar tgk muka "org" tu berkerut2 senyum x ikhlas. ehehe

i m still hoping that miracle will happen. Ya Allah, please help us. mudah kan kami dalam mencapai impian itu.

nguhu. bosan nye duk sorg2 di sini ketika ini. menyesal plak tak balik kl.

till then, bubbye~~

:)

p/s: samira, be cool and sabar menghadapi momen ini okay. semua yg berlaku ada hikmah nya. i'll be there always for u. chaiyo`!!

PIPE (day 16 & day 17)

will miss u guys so much. :)

at last. the end of PIPE has come.

n i can say we end it GOOD. especially the performance. i LOVE it so much. congratz everybody for the great job. n to make it more sweeter. our facilitator love it so much too`! hehe [kiranya bkn syok sndiri lah kan]

n the last sharing session. its so sad since its the last day of PIPE which means PERPISAHAN.. but at the same time all of us are really happy because

1. we managed to undergo the PIPE and insyallah getting all of the things that PIPE supposedly to delivered.
2. we really loves being with each other. despite all of the differences during that 17 days of PIPE program. you guys are so uniquely cute and fun person. i am blessed to get to know all of u. and i can say that i am really lucky to be in group 1 rather than group 2. y? :) [biarlah rahsia`]

hope the friendship, the experience and the moments together in PIPE will be in our heart forever. GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST to all of my PIPE mates.

friendship forever.

PIPE (day 10-15)

its been so fast since i was here on the first day of PIPE. now its already 2 days left before we went to our own path of life n career.

there is a lot of feelings, thought that came into my mind. n there is also lots of things that i will remember forever related to PIPE 52..

the people. the experience. the memories. the games. the food..etc

"oh my god~~~"

"eee geli lah~!"

"eh diam lah~~!"

"miss PIPE 52...."

"DATO' SITI..."

"anok tikuh~~..."

"api-api...."

"oh my gucci~..."

"datin`~~..."

"mr manager..."

"LOGMOC... CLIP.. ROTIBALDEP..."

n byk lagi lah...

huhu. sedihnya.. but at the same time i feel so happy and excited to start my working life in kerteh... there is a lot of uncertainties... also opportunities... that can affect my life later..

wish me luck guys..

especially on the last n final performance.. yok our PIPE mates.. yok practice~!!

PIPE (day 9)

hari ini..

semua orang macam sangat gloomy, down, ngantuk, letih n bosan.. maybe sebab community service tu semalam.. huhu

so kelas hari ni sangat la passive..

dah la today's activities was like so dull..

hanya talk2.. present2.. talk2.. present2 lagi..

nasib baik ada poco-poco di tengah-tengah nye.. n thank god it was not me again who have to lead this poco-poco.. :P

malam, makan n then KAROK again`~ :P

N esok ada MEGA CHALLENGE.. i hope it will be interesting..

sebab dah mula rasa bosan balik neh.. nguu..

p/s: malu dengan diri sendiri sebab tak tahu buat montaj even tho im from ICT background.. nguu malu je dengan mr alias bila dia request tadi..

PIPE (day 8)

today's activity?

Community Field Project to Pusat Tahfiz An-Najihah di Kg Jijan, Nilai.

not as what i or maybe most of us expected it to be..

but then.. ok lah..

we had fun.. n for sure.. personally i have learned and gained a lot from them...

especially today has made me to realise that the behaviour and mindset is very important. n it is very important for us to have the correct one since we were small. to ensure that we can be successful in our life.

n looking at all of the boys there, who most of them have handphone each, it also made me realise that the exposure that the kids nowadays have is not good at all for them. what i meant is the games, and other technologies that might affect them in all aspect.

such as.. they might be so materialistic. lack of sense of respect to older people n etc.

antara babak yang terjadi siang td, yang dapat menyokong pernyataan saya di atas itu,

kakak faci: "ey.. pergilah tolong kawan g bina menara tu~"

budak 1: "tengah tolong la ni, tolong tengok. hahahaha"

budak 2: "hahahaha"

kakak faci: " korang ni. loyar buruk plak ye. pegi la tolong. nak menang ke tanak?"

budak 1: "tanak lah. bukan nye dapat apa-apa pun~"

budak2: anguk2.

kakak faci: sigh~

i hope the kids also had fun too.. n also at the same time gained something from today's visit.. n maybe will change those bad habits of theirs to better ones.. such as taking care of their rooms and house's cleanliness.. n yes.. their toilet.. huhu.. lagi pun, islam sndiri mengajar umat nye utk sntiasa menjaga kebersihan kan..

n also esp. if u want to flirt around, pls make sure the girl is much2 younger than u. n she's not married yet.. :P

n now.. just let the pic tells u the story.. :)

budak tembam ni sangat mencuit hati kami.

before balik to PERMATA

one of the games that we played

before bergerak ke pusat tahfiz an najihah

nampak mcm ahli kumpulan nasyid x kami?

kagum dengan PIPEmates yang sungguh gigih bergotong royong. even tho i incharge in games pun dah penat mcm apa. apatah lagi korg kan? tahniah2.

n i started to feel like a big happy famili with most of my PIPEmates. :)

PIPE (day 7)

hari ni sibuk sungguh dgn preparation utk community service.

mcm2 planning dibuat. harap2 mereka esok sume gembira la dgn kedatangan kami. si budak2 PIPE 52 ni.

ada game. ada sharing session. ada gotong royong.

harap-harap kami selamat sampai ke Nilai itu esok.

n dapat saling memberi.. dan juga menerima..

n from today's and tomorrow's activity, now i know, putrajaya got MYDIN. besides alamanda..

n also i can feel dat the bond between PIPEers of batch 52 is getting closer and stronger.

we are having fun preparing for tomorrow's big event. especially in getting the prizes ready. thank u guys for all of the good ideas and words.

but still.. i got problem in finding my house in kerteh. can anyone help me?? nguu..

n im so mad n fed up with PG ofis, UT* for cancelling n not giving my allowance for last month. alasan x logik langsung. padahal. ak buat kot 20 jam keje2 GA n research days for 21 days last month. so i have the right to get that allowance no matter wat kan? x logik langsung kata sbb ak da stop buat master.. allowance last month xleh dapat. apa la. marah2.

harap2 org yg berkenaan tu dapat berfikir dgn baik n memberi hak ku kembali. kalau x. ada gak yang mengamok pasneh.

k la. got to have my beauty sleep now. esok nk g berbakti nih. hik hik. chows~ salam.

PIPE (day 6)

its been so tiring...

each and everyday will be full of activities...

n today...

i am feeling so frustrated and dissatisfied with myself..

i am still weak in presenting..

n talking in front..

especially when i need to do it spontaneously...

i will looked so scared...n not confident.. n the worst thing that could happen is.. BLUR...

aih... apa lah yang faciliatator2 tu pikir akan diri ni ek.

jeles sungguh dengan mereka2 yang pandai berkata2 di depan orang dengan slumber nye dan spontan..

n yang paling penting...

isi yang di sampai kan bermakna dan berisi...

bukannya lawak bodoh semata2..

aih. byk sungguh benda yang kena di improvekan demi kebaikan diri sndiri n PET..

apa-apa pun..

• i love the sharing session with Mr Sam. [nama samaran je taw] someone big from PETRONAS dis evening.. he was so inspiring. i hope i can be just like him someday.

ngu.. esok apa la plak yang akan ak hadapi di PIPE nih.

n plg penting.. sesi karok td tak puas ok. huhuhu

k la. maw tido. chow`~

PIPE (day 1 - day 5)

currently i am in PERMATA, Bangi for the Petronas Induction Program for new Executive (PIPE). this program will make me stay here for 17 days before i can start my new life and career in Petronas Penapisan Terengganu, Kerteh. and also make me more comel and GEMOK`! since the food was so heavenly prepared for us. (-.-!)

n some fact or points or thoughts that i want to highlight until today...

• its only me and aween jek from batch jan 05 yang join PIPE 52
• my roomate is a cool mother aged 29 years old. byk leh kongsi cite especially about marriage and anak. ehe (gatal nk kawen kah saya?)
• my team mates, team Professionalism is all from UTP, only one of us is from UMS, Sabah
• our faci told us that our group is the most patient and coolest group (ok. ni saya add sendiri :P) since the 1st PIPE ever.. or u can say the most passive one lah. i think the faci just want to be nice to us, so dat we will not feel down. huhu
• only 36 (kot) of us. pecah kepada dua group lagi. n bayangkan ada PIPE batch lain sampai 100+ participants. sgt tak fair kan?
• i still slow in giving out my ideas and comments during the classroom activities.. hm. maybe sbb enjin x panas lagi kot. i wish i can be more outspoken n berani mati dalam bersuara
• i really2 dont like the SPIDER WEB game. they should change the game~!
• i love the SELIPAR GERGASI game. even tho terpaksa patah balik 2 kali. its worth. hehe
• a few guys from PIPE 52 ni said that i looked so serius and i should smile always and a lot~ which give me a great shock okay. muka ak ni mcm tu ke? huhu. tindakan luar sedar k. sori3. pasneh i will try to give more senyuman menawan. eceh~
• i like and satisfied with the laundry service. i'll make sure i ckup kan rm200 allocation for laundry by dis 17th. rugi beb if i x gunakan.
• still x sempat nk explore the pool room and the karaoke room.
• byk sungguh presentation, discussion and acting activities. which i dont really prefer to be the player. sgt takde bakat ok dalam menghiburkan hati penonton.
• love the "poco-poco" session.
• kelakar bila dapat tgk guys yang macho2 terpaksa nanyi lagu My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion
• excited and eager to know what are we going to eat each and every day.. :P

hm... tu je la kot..

i hope i can give a very good impression to the facilitators by the end of the PIPE 52.. huhu

chow guys. mahu menghadirkan diri utk discussion. bubbye~